turmoil

What if i have lost sight of what God wants in my life? Being debt free has been a conviction of mine since i was young. Then why all of a sudden i am willing to get a loan for one year at school? Is this why i have procrastinated in applying? Why do i get this sick feeling in my stomach every time i think about getting a loan? Oh so many questions going through my head. like what if i were to move to Lynchburg? Would God actually call me to be somewhere that would make me happy? Would He call me to do what my heart desires? Or am i just being selfish? Should i go to a school, be debt free, and be near the person i want to be with most? Or should i travel the opposite direction, get a loan, and live in the rockies? Oh if anyone has any biblical out put on this it would be greatly appreciated. I am in turmoil. I don't know what road to take. West, or East. Praying is what im doing most right now.